Titus 2:11-14 says "For the Grace of God that brings salvation has appeared to all men, teaching us that, denying ungodliness and worldly lusts, we should live soberly, righteously, and godly in the present age, looking for the Blessed Hope and glorious appearing of our GREAT GOD AND SAVIOR JESUS CHRIST, who gave himself for us, that HE might redeem us from every lawless deed and purify for Himself HIS own special people, zealous for good works,
In my devotion this morning (Blessing by Laura Story) she says "There is joy to be found in this life through Jesus Christ; yet He will not let our joy be complete here on this earth. Any sense of wholeness we feel is simply an appetizer. Any display of splendor on this earth is simply the opening act for His 'glorious appearing' "
Last night at our bible study i kept thinking about the verse from psalm 30:5 where it says that "joy will come in the morning". Going through a deep valley the last few months has been really tough. I learned that there is no valley to deep that God's light cannot reach. I'm not the same person i was a few months ago. That's a little scary. I feel scarred. But GOD never left me. I have felt closer to HIM than ever before. And I know its because He has carried me. I still have joy but its not complete. In this devotion she asks " is it possible that GOD leaves an ache in my soul to remind me that this is not my home. Does HE leave that tinge there to impassion me to tell others about that hope?"
I keep contemplating why GOD would allow me to lose two babies in 5 months.Why He would allow such pain? I know we are not promised a "safe life". We are not promised to always be on the mountain top. But we are promised by the Creator of the universe that Joy will come in the morning. My morning want be on this earth. But my Joy will be made complete the day I meet Jesus face to face. You see, this is not our home. And praise GOD that I have a Savior that loves me enough to go and prepare a place for me.(John14:2-3) And will one day come again to take me home to HIM and my two babies. She says " This is our blessed hope: that we are HIS and will someday spend eternity with HIM. Until then, we are strangers and foreigners, left with scars and limps, and all the other subtle reminders of that sweet truth: we are not home."
C.S Lewis says "If I find myself a desire which no experience in this world can satisfy, the most probable explanation is that I was made for another world." Ive never felt so different and so out of place and so loved all at the same time.But I know now its GOD reminding me that this is not my home. So now when my days feel like a battle and I'm feeling the effects of my scars i will be reminded that this is not my home.
I cannot fathom whats waiting for me in heaven but i so look forward to finding out.
